Between Dreams and Reality

Jun 14

"Hiatus"

Over the past weeks, I’ve become less and less active. Busy between irl stuff, work mostly and personnal projects…
At lot of things have happened in my life over the past weeks and I’m trying to cope with all the change and consequences. Even though it was for the good, even though I’m trying my best to stay strong, I feel like I just barely have my nose above the water…

I haven’t updated the ask Rainbow Dash’s family for so long… I’m way behind my personnal projects. The quality of my work have lessened and I’m a bother for my coworker at the time.

It’s very frustrating because I really want to do better, I really want to work on my projects and all. I really want to update my ask tumblr, not just my followers but because it’s something I’m supposed to enjoy. But I came to a point where all the things I enjoyed back then barely gave me a smile right now… I don’t enjoy drawing anymore at the time. I need to struggle and fight with myself to make something decent. Drawing is supposed to be for fun and the ask tumblr are supposed too… so what’s the point in forcing myself in trying to update them if the rest is not here. It will only result in me being digusted or such over it…

At the moment, my mood motivation is at zero. I don’t want to do anything. I can’t concentrate at all and my mood is constantly changing. It’s like being on a roller-coaster everyday. One minute I’m happy, the next one I’m crying a river… Cheesy I know…
When my mood drop, I use the few energy I have left to try to not mess up the good things that are in my life.

It’s really tiring. And not just for me but for the ones around me and I feel so sorry and ashamed to make them live that at the moment. I’m still amazed that despite all this, they still stick with me when all I feel is that I’m being a nuisance for them…

I feel sorry that you all have to read few personnals stuff overs the weeks and I really hope that this message going to be one of the last because let’s face it, you shouldn’t be bothered by my personnal life and feelings.

It’s supposed to be my art tumblr. Simple as that.

But recently I finally was able to put a fingers on what’s have been wrong with me.
I was more than strongly recommended by my doctor to take some holidays…

So well, starting this monday, I’ll go on a hiatus for two weeks. Two weeks where I’ll cut everything, do nothing.
I will only be me, Marrackech and the sun…

I really hope that after than time with myself and few others things that I will have a grip on myself.
That I simply will have myself and my life back on track and that this tumblr will cease to have personnal stuff like this.

Maybe you don’t care about all this and well it’s probably normal.
But I felt the need to at least explain the future lack of update.

Until then, take care all.

May 23
Now it’s done I can move on…
And guess what… I’m able to draw again…Even though it’s not much :p
(And yeah no pony and a crappy photo for now)

Now it’s done I can move on…

And guess what… I’m able to draw again…
Even though it’s not much :p

(And yeah no pony and a crappy photo for now)

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